Thursday, September 25, 2003
I just bought my costume for the show! AY YI YI!
It cost me $50 and that pisses me off, since I will never be wearing these clothes ever again, but it was something that I had to do. Theater careers are so expensive! I think it looks pretty good though. It’s just a couple of t-shirts and some REALLY lame jewelry. The one good thing, though, is that one of the t-shirts for the show is going to surprise my housemates from college. The picture on the front is an inside joke with me and my girls. YAHOOOOO!
So Paul called KELLY yesterday. Not me.
He called her to let her know that he is coming by my apartment on Saturday night to talk about our relationship. When Kelly told me the news, I was immediately pissed off. He calls HER? I have called him twice this week and he hasn’t returned any of those calls, but he feels that it’s appropriate to call her and tell her that he is coming over. That’s fucking lame and I’m still angry about it.
Too bad for him that I already made plans on Saturday night, so it doesn’t seem as though we are going to get together to talk. I just called him again and left a message and told him that I would be willing to change my plans if he could give me a definite time of arrival at my place. I'm still thinking about it.
If he doesn't take this seriously, he can go fuck himself and I won’t deal with his nonsense until after the show.
The thing is…I totally fucked up last Friday night. I have dealt with that and have admitted it over and over. Paul deserves an apology and I am more than willing to give it to him. BUT, and this is a BIG BUT(T), he needs to understand that he is in a RELATIONSHIP with me and with that comes certain responsibilities. SUCH AS calling back your boyfriend, no matter how hard it is. I know for a fact that he still wants to work things out and be with me because he said all of that to Kelly on the phone yesterday. However, calling my best friend to ask her if she can make arrangements on my behalf is not only offensive, it’s fucking immature.
Needless to say, I am very much not in the mood to talk to him right now. I was, but I’m not anymore. I don’t know what’s going to happen with us. Yes, I want to be with him, but he needs to make much more of an effort to be a normal human being. Not a selfish baby, like he has been for the last 3 years. I’m through with kowtowing to his every need. I am supposed to be dating a MAN, not a little child.
GAH!
He pisses me off more than anyone else in the world does. Maybe that’s love or maybe that’s hate. I’m not quite sure yet.
Rehearsal last night was incredible. I was able to reach a few new levels and I even shocked myself with some of what came out of me. It was an invigorating and monumental rehearsal for me. And it made me even more excited for the show…if that’s even possible.
Ok…thaz it fo today!
I got a ton of shit to do at work and I have to get my ass in gear for rehearsal tonight.
TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!
Please God let it better than last Friday.
It cost me $50 and that pisses me off, since I will never be wearing these clothes ever again, but it was something that I had to do. Theater careers are so expensive! I think it looks pretty good though. It’s just a couple of t-shirts and some REALLY lame jewelry. The one good thing, though, is that one of the t-shirts for the show is going to surprise my housemates from college. The picture on the front is an inside joke with me and my girls. YAHOOOOO!
So Paul called KELLY yesterday. Not me.
He called her to let her know that he is coming by my apartment on Saturday night to talk about our relationship. When Kelly told me the news, I was immediately pissed off. He calls HER? I have called him twice this week and he hasn’t returned any of those calls, but he feels that it’s appropriate to call her and tell her that he is coming over. That’s fucking lame and I’m still angry about it.
Too bad for him that I already made plans on Saturday night, so it doesn’t seem as though we are going to get together to talk. I just called him again and left a message and told him that I would be willing to change my plans if he could give me a definite time of arrival at my place. I'm still thinking about it.
If he doesn't take this seriously, he can go fuck himself and I won’t deal with his nonsense until after the show.
The thing is…I totally fucked up last Friday night. I have dealt with that and have admitted it over and over. Paul deserves an apology and I am more than willing to give it to him. BUT, and this is a BIG BUT(T), he needs to understand that he is in a RELATIONSHIP with me and with that comes certain responsibilities. SUCH AS calling back your boyfriend, no matter how hard it is. I know for a fact that he still wants to work things out and be with me because he said all of that to Kelly on the phone yesterday. However, calling my best friend to ask her if she can make arrangements on my behalf is not only offensive, it’s fucking immature.
Needless to say, I am very much not in the mood to talk to him right now. I was, but I’m not anymore. I don’t know what’s going to happen with us. Yes, I want to be with him, but he needs to make much more of an effort to be a normal human being. Not a selfish baby, like he has been for the last 3 years. I’m through with kowtowing to his every need. I am supposed to be dating a MAN, not a little child.
GAH!
He pisses me off more than anyone else in the world does. Maybe that’s love or maybe that’s hate. I’m not quite sure yet.
Rehearsal last night was incredible. I was able to reach a few new levels and I even shocked myself with some of what came out of me. It was an invigorating and monumental rehearsal for me. And it made me even more excited for the show…if that’s even possible.
Ok…thaz it fo today!
I got a ton of shit to do at work and I have to get my ass in gear for rehearsal tonight.
TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!
Please God let it better than last Friday.
